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Saturday, November 4


In all seriousness,i am desperate for a salvation of some sort,a higher being(see you know i am referring to God but i can't blatantly just mention his name because he will then know i am desperate for help and he will not help me..ok fine,that's not ture,but that's kinda like my logic so if you do not agree you can set up your own church preaching differently).I need someone mighty to help me sort out my life right now because as you can see,it is in a very bad shape(i know,you can't really tell because i always sound so spirited but really i am not.Its all a front and i am a very good actor,acting like i am fine when i am not.Again,i am a very good actor so bear that in mind.Next time you say something to me like "EH I THINK YOUR TSHIRT SUCKS" and i say "OH THAT'S ALRIGHT" i probably really mean "I HOPE YOU DIE AND ROT IN HELL.IS IT REALLY THAT UGLY? IS IT? SHIT.")

So anyway where was I..Right.
Well,the point is.I need a direction.I mean,I know the direction i am suppose to go at. But there's this really strong current,wind whatever,steering me away from my destination or the right path(if you want to get all preachy-language and all) and right now i am pretty much in a doldrum in juvenile-delinquent land.

So please,please help me.No i don't want any of you to help me.You're all useless.Its not like you can turn water into fire or fire into ice.Oh please,you can't create miracles for me.I need a higher being,ok i give up,I NEED YOU GOD so please help me find my way and not wander into a strange land my heart wants to be in but one where my mind is screaming "you bloody useless fool..bloody sinner.Get out of there!"


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